there are so many out there

watch this video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jI7J2b3t4WU

Crazy isn't it? So sad that shame kept this girl's family from doing anything to establish their status here. So terrible that you only exist with papers or an existing process, otherwise you are like a ghost . . . worse than a ghost really because at least a ghost's presence is acknowledged (for those who believe in ghosts anyway).

I'm just wondering how this girl grew up, that she somehow let slip getting her driver's license . . . that was when I first got wind of the true weight of my situation. 15, all my friends are talking about driver's ed, I want in, go to my parents. End up in tears of confusion and feeling left out.

As a teenager nothing matters except what you and your friends are doing, but as a teenager, I had different priorities. I held hope that if I remained focused on school and kept kicking ass with grades and all the other activities I was involved in, I'd have schools bending over backwards to have me. I had the delusion since I was 8 that if I was an outstanding student schools would be fighting for me - it's so hard to write that knowing the truth now . . . makes me sad for my 8 year-year-old self, but what else are parents to do but to give their children hopes and aspirations for a better life?

I guess my parents were just as naive, but really just didn't know any better. After all they were putting their first child through a life very different from their own. One where I would grow up in a social and educational system neither of them were familiar with. There was nothing they could prepare me for, but have always been there emotionally and morally to push through every single obstacle.

Yes it sucked, but despite the painful disappointments, I have had so many gifts and fortune throughout these last 6 years. I wouldn't want to be standing anywhere else right now. Not to say that I am content where I am at the moment, but I would not have wanted to miss out on the many wonderful people I've met so far, or missed out on the many life lessons I've been presented with.

A change for the better in the near future would most definitely be appreciated :)

Originally Posted: monday, may 17, 2010 at 5:27pm