Flashbacks with Magic

As I was leaving work today I had a strange sense of déjà vu. I have a corner desk and I push the trashcan as far back as possible so I don't bump into it when I swivel around in my chair. I like to pull the trashcan out from under my desk so the custodians don't have a difficult time reaching for it when they come to empty it. This wasn't the first I'd done this but for some reason today was the day I had a flashback to my childhood.

The first few years living in the U.S. my dad was cleaning apartment buildings as well as office buildings. I would go with him on Saturday nights to this one office where I'd push my little brother around in a desk chair and see how fast he'd let me push him. Before the fun ensued I'd run around the office pulling out the trashcans from under the desks for my dad to come around and throw out whatever filled them. Today I had this tiny moment of, I'm not even sure what you call it exactly. It's not a coming full-circle feeling because I'm not the boss yet, I've got a ways to go, but that's what it felt like. A minuscule full-circle life sort of moment. It was magical.

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Obama Announces Immigration Reform

The internet is abuzz with the Immigration Reform today, Thursday, November 20, 2014. Today reminded me why I wish I could've voted when Obama was running.

It blows my mind to think of a version of my life where I would be sitting here today in front of my television thirsty for a solution from the man himself, to be given the chance to live. As hard as I try, I cannot think of what version of myself I would be if I were still here today, undocumented.

I must say I am beaming today and every day to know that thanks to my stubbornness to get closure on my case regardless of the outcome, I am now two years from obtaining Citizenship. It is impossible to know the circumstances of every single immigrant out there, but for all those who deserve it, I hope this is the turning point in all of your lives so you can move on to change the world without the fear of deportation. The grass is definitely greener on the other side.

Here is an article that will give you additional information on today's speech.

#ImmigrationReform2014 #Obama

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The Blissful Angst of Life

I've become so much less involved in the immigration issue and so much more involved in worrying about what to do with my life, so much so that I've neglected to tell you of the most important anniversaries that have passed me by this year. This May 3rd marked 3 years of Residency, so I am two years away from obtaining Citizenship, yay! And just two weeks ago was my 28th birthday, that makes 20 years since I've lived here! (wowser)

Having celebrated my birthday put me in a very pensive state, not that I haven't been breaking my head over this since getting my greenie. What to do with my life. I've accepted that no one can help me figure it out. There is no right or wrong choice . . . or is there? I feel like there is, this is the one I am having the most difficulty with.

I've realized the reason I'm having such a hard time saying, "this is what I want to do", is because I spent so many years trying to accept (my reality at the time) that I was never going to be able to do anything with my life here in the U.S. It sounds pessimistic, but realize that every year since my senior year of high school was a year my parents and I kept saying, "this will be the year your Residency comes through", and year after year I was disappointed. There's only so much a young person can take of that, so in that time I worked really hard on myself on just focusing in the present and enjoying life day to day. I played the spectator to the lives of those around me.

It's not that I don't know what my interests are, trust me, I know what they are but I feel that being out of college now it is so difficult to say, "I want to try my hand at this". Yes, I am afraid of failing because . . . (writing this now it seems stupid but it doesn't take away the fear) I'm afraid of failing because I just am. Really the worry is money.

This is the battle that's been going on in my head, but I've made some decisions. I'll be taking the GRE (Graduate Record Examinations) so I can have that out of the way once I decide what my Graduate program will be. Some of you may be confused because I took the LSAT (Law School Admission Test) last year, I had a soul crushing experience with that so I am going a different route I've decided.

All in all though, I've had a fantastic three years so far as a Resident. I am thankful for the angst that comes along with making these life changing decisions because I truly never saw this happening for me.

If you read through all of this, thank you for letting me ramble. If you didn't thanks for glancing anyway :)

MUCH LOVE TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE!!!

PS- I need to plan a trip for this year.

Mexico Reunion

It's been a little over a month since my return from Mexico. I still dream about it, I can't help but yearn to be back there every single day but I do love being back. There is nothing like the comforts of being in your own bed, and having hot running water and not waking up every morning with new mosquito bites to discover. There was no way I'd ever be able to share my 3,000+ photos from my trip so I put a video together. I'm not a professional and I did the best I could with my PC. Click here to get a little taste of my return to Mexico, I hope you enjoy it as much as I enjoyed being there and making this video.

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