The Blissful Angst of Life

I've become so much less involved in the immigration issue and so much more involved in worrying about what to do with my life, so much so that I've neglected to tell you of the most important anniversaries that have passed me by this year. This May 3rd marked 3 years of Residency, so I am two years away from obtaining Citizenship, yay! And just two weeks ago was my 28th birthday, that makes 20 years since I've lived here! (wowser)

Having celebrated my birthday put me in a very pensive state, not that I haven't been breaking my head over this since getting my greenie. What to do with my life. I've accepted that no one can help me figure it out. There is no right or wrong choice . . . or is there? I feel like there is, this is the one I am having the most difficulty with.

I've realized the reason I'm having such a hard time saying, "this is what I want to do", is because I spent so many years trying to accept (my reality at the time) that I was never going to be able to do anything with my life here in the U.S. It sounds pessimistic, but realize that every year since my senior year of high school was a year my parents and I kept saying, "this will be the year your Residency comes through", and year after year I was disappointed. There's only so much a young person can take of that, so in that time I worked really hard on myself on just focusing in the present and enjoying life day to day. I played the spectator to the lives of those around me.

It's not that I don't know what my interests are, trust me, I know what they are but I feel that being out of college now it is so difficult to say, "I want to try my hand at this". Yes, I am afraid of failing because . . . (writing this now it seems stupid but it doesn't take away the fear) I'm afraid of failing because I just am. Really the worry is money.

This is the battle that's been going on in my head, but I've made some decisions. I'll be taking the GRE (Graduate Record Examinations) so I can have that out of the way once I decide what my Graduate program will be. Some of you may be confused because I took the LSAT (Law School Admission Test) last year, I had a soul crushing experience with that so I am going a different route I've decided.

All in all though, I've had a fantastic three years so far as a Resident. I am thankful for the angst that comes along with making these life changing decisions because I truly never saw this happening for me.

If you read through all of this, thank you for letting me ramble. If you didn't thanks for glancing anyway :)

MUCH LOVE TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE!!!

PS- I need to plan a trip for this year.

Crazy Claw Will be Heard

That was the subject line I misspelled before going to bed last night: Crazy Claw Will be Heard. So despite the disappointment after reading the news that the Supreme Court will hear Jan Brewer's appeal, I at least got a nice laugh before getting to sleep.

I suppose in order to uphold Democracy the court has to give the illusion that they are giving Brewer a chance, so as not to give away their true feelings about how insane Brewer is. Ok, I think Jan Brewer is crazy. I really hope the Court keeps to its guns and turns down Brewer's SB 1070 law. This is a duty that is at the hands of the Federal government, and even though the government isn't doing a great job at controlling the borders, there are bigger problems in this society to complain about all the undocumented immigrants in this country because all they are doing is trying to give their children an opportunity to decent education, a safer life and better prospects. What is criminal about that?

I doubt you are surprised about how I feel about Jan Brewer and SB 1070, but there it is. I am eager to follow how this pans out.

Have a lovely Tuesday.

MUCH LOVE!!!(To everyone except Jan Brewer and all those ignorant people supporting her they will never understand what it's like to have to fight for survival)

AZ back at it

AZ state Governor Jan Brewer is appealing to the high court and urging the court to reevaluate its decision to turn down the preposterous AZ law to give the police force the power to monitor illegal immigration and suspected undocumented immigrants. This Monday, Dec 12, the court will decide if it will hear the appeal or not. Here is the LA Times article, I will certainly keep an eye out for what happens. If you've read previous posts about this law, Arizona is not the only state to have given its internal police force the power to handle undocumented immigration and its victims, Georgia, Utah, Alabama and South Carolina have jumped on the band wagon. Hopefully the court turns down the appeal and finally shuts down these governor's wish to control an aspect of this society that should be in the hands of the federal government.

I'll leave you with that for now, have a wonderful Sunday.

MUCH LOVE!!!

Fences

Today in the LA Times there's an article about the Fence Project. It's amusing to me that a government seriously believes, likes to believe or pretends to believe that a wall will discourage people from coming to the U.S. This project is a waste of money first of all. Second, has this government learned nothing from history? Actually they've proved time and again that they really haven't learned anything from history, as a government anyway.

No wall is going to stop a desperate person from getting what they need. This desperate person is a father or a mother in search of a better life for their family. A wall is the last thing that is going to deter them, these people have lived through things worse than material obstacles. If jobs were available to them in their own countries they wouldn't risk their lives, but not only is there a lack of employment. There's a lack of opportunity for prosperity and security.

A wall is not the solution to this problem. This is like sticking a band-aid on a viral infection. No one take offense to this, I am not calling immigrants viruses. I simply want to illustrate that there is a bigger issue there and every solution the government has come up with is a temporary cover-up. To soothe the tranquility of the extreme conservatives and everyone else who is blindly afraid of immigration and the people forced into this.

Think about it. Discuss it.