TOOOOOOOOOOOOOMORROW

Tomorrow :)

The doubts are still lingering but not as much, now I'm just full of excitement and anticipation.

Have a wonderful day! I have a test today in Physiology so I'm off to study.

MUCH LOVE!!!

a heart to heart

This is my place to be honest . . . as confident as I am about what will happen on Wednesday, what if the board stands by the decisions previous courts have made? The world is a crazy place and I am not crazy enough to ignore that. I was about to send out my close friends an invite to come to my house Friday night to celebrate Wednesday, when a tiny bit of doubt sank my heart. What if there's nothing to celebrate?

Maybe this is just my way of keeping myself in check and be prepared for the unexpected. Always be prepared for the unexpected, but no matter how much I think about it I don't think I could handle hearing a verdict against me.

I know I come off very confident about my very near future, maybe it's just the wine bringing me back to earth? Sunday at 10pm is a quiet time, and being alone with your thoughts is sometimes a bit of torture. It's too easy to express doubt to a faceless listener.

All get their justice eventually, my eventually is almost here.

LET FREEDOM COME.

MUCH LOVE!!!

CUATRO, QUATRE, FOUR!

We are down to four days my friends!!!!!!!

This time next week I will be a different girl, I'll be on a high that will last the rest of my life.

Excited, ecstatic, baffled, lightheaded. There are many more words I can use to describe the feeling that has hit me a few times when I've had the time to think about it, I love ecstatic the most.

I want to say dreams do come true, but this has honestly never been a dream for me. It's always been a delayed reality. I promise you I am not the delusional type, I know who I am, what I'm capable of and what I deserve. I know in this world it is almost impossible to say who deserves what because there is so much wrong with this world, but there is still justice in the world sprinkled in this salad called life. The Life You Deserve.

There were so many times it seemed like it was never going to happen for me, but like I've said time and again, patience my biggest challenge and my Patience Guru MY MOM have gotten me to today and will get me to Wednesday and will get me through the rest of life, The Life I Deserve.

Have a wonderful weekend my friends!

MUCH LOVE(to You and Life)!!!

I'll definitely try to get another two postings in before the other side :X

Siete, Sept, SEVEN!

in a whisper: seven days

:D

yes it's old, I still think it's funny, anyone who saw The Ring knows what I'm talking about (it's that movie, right? haha I often get movie names mixed up).

My mom was telling me the other day my dad is crazy excited, for obvious reasons of course. It's child-like how excited we all are.

MUCH LOVE!!!

LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN!

We're almost down to a week, Nine days!

As if Wednesday wasn't a big enough deal, it is being accentuated by the fact that I have to make arrangements for an assignment that is due on the 9th as well as an in-class assignment that will be happening that same day. My Professor asked if there was any way I could reschedule what I had happening that day, when she finds out what it is she will understand why I chuckled. I told her, "No, it is something extremely important, I cannot reschedule". Of course she has to accommodate me because it is not an exam I am missing, and I am letting her know about not being in class well in advance.

We are all very excited here at my house, and I am so happy to say that so are my friends, thank you.

Have I compared myself to Pinocchio sans the lying? Because I am totally feeling like I'm about to become a real girl!!

Ever since I was 10, I stare into the sky watching planes, looking forward to the next time I'd be on one, the take-off has always been my favorite part. Never knowing at that age that I couldn't step foot into one, and that more than a decade would pass until I'd be allowed to travel in one again.

The excitement really comes down to something that many people here take for granted, having an ID. I've stopped writing for about 10 minutes because there's so much about this that makes my heart stop. Having access to this is my key to paradise, there it is, that's the best I can do.

LIFE, here it comes.

Hope you are all healthy and happy :)

MUCH LOVE!!!

Life is coming

Enough of this silence, I apologize.

Lots has happened, lots of rain, full days of weight lifting (moving), lots of organizing, and school.

We are now past the two weeks til my day! It's so unreal, I realized this last Weds at the end of class when the Prof was telling us about our first assignment, due March 9th. For the 50th time it made me really happy I am going to miss class for something monumentally important. I say about 50th time, but I don't actually have count of the times I had court appearances.


Anyway, I won't be in class that day, luckily it's only one class and I'll be able to turn in the oh so important assignment. It really isn't, it's just a current event type thing focused on nutrition, it'll be great!

School is great, I'm loving Human Physiology, kind of wish I was taking another mentally challenging class, but Chemistry requires so much time I'd probably regret it. When I ride my bike to school it takes me about 50mins to get there, nice cardio workout.

So that's the state of things at the moment, hope all of you out there are doing great!

Thanks for reading and caring.

MUCH LOVE!!!

The happs

A little on my life right now:

I spent the majority of last week fighting asthma and allergies to dust, weak immune system is never a good thing. Since we're moving I'm hanging with a lot of dust and I had the worse reaction to it I've ever had. I am for the first time experiencing asthma attacks as an adult. Luckily I do have a very attentive doctor and I got the necessary medication and I am finally getting better.

My parents and I are working on the last touches on the new place which we'll be going to Friday! This week is very exciting, as have been the last couple weeks actually.

Today was my first day of classes, one class today but it was exciting enough. I'm in a class where 5 other people want to be personal trainers! Also about 15 of the people in this class were born in Mexico, makes me wonder if they're at this school because they can't afford to go anywhere else for status reasons. I met a girl who was born here, but lived in Mexico for 10 years, I laughed because it was the exact opposite for me.

I hope you all had a lovely Valentine's Day. It's sad how all those who don't have significant others get all sad and pout and go around saying how much they hate today. Love is all around, this may come off cliche, but you don't need to have someone to validate the love you're capable of. There are friends and family who love you and care about you. Anyway, hope no one was miserable today :)

Tomorrow is the bulk of my classes, so I'm really looking forward to it.

Thanks for following!

MUCH LOVE!!!

Today is a Gift!

The news of all news has arrived!

My friends and family I am ecstatic to share with you that today I received my notice for my interview to adjust status. March 9th is THE DAY.

My dad was threatening with punishment for being a brat to my mom when I got home today, I was confused because I haven't been home all weekend. Then tells me he has something for me and I see the envelope and my heart started racing, my temperature rose and I say to my dad, "it's what we've been waiting for isn't it?" Giant smile on his face and my mom!

About a month and my life will be completely turned around, I will be a real adult. My head is still spinning at the thought, but I still can't completely grasp how much this really means yet. The true effect of this will smack me the very day of, LIFE!!

Thank you so so much for reading and following and caring.

MUCH LOVE!!!

I'm still Here

There hasn't been much to write about, I haven't been following the news much. Been keeping things very personal lately, just taking care of myself. A month has passed and no big changes have happened yet.

I did learn one very important thing, life has a plan for me. I had quite an experience a couple weeks ago which I unfortunately cannot share, I know it's like teasing a baby with candy. Trust me, the most important part of this is what I learned from it. Life has a plan for me and it is going to happen. I am surrounded by wonderful people, those I know and even those I don't. Just about every person worth talking about that life has put in my path is someone that has made a great impact on the way I see life.

Sometimes we need to dig deeper for more strength, I thought my patience had ran out, but look at me, I'm 6 months past the point I didn't think I could wait any longer. In that time I got just about the best news of my life and life continues to challenge me to dig for more patience.

I've got two weeks til I start school and I'm really looking forward to it. Also going to be moving soon, we all know a change of scenery is always a good thing for the mind. This next place will hopefully be the last place I will be living with my parents (let's hope).

Thanks for keeping up.

MUCH LOVE!!!

Personal progress

I can finally honestly tell you my mail checking obsession has calmed down, it really wasn't healthy to go from day to day just waiting for the chance to check the mail. I couldn't admit to it or realize it until a couple days ago, but it has passed. I really was doing plenty to keep myself occupied but it was still constantly on my mind and I was starting to become a tad disappointed. It's not that I've given up, there's just a better way to go about waiting for the prize. By not truly thinking about it, and becoming fully preoccupied with other things in life. I am very happy these days.

There is always plenty to be thankful for and the best way to not just believe it, but feel it, is to use what you have to construct your life. What I have right now is mental and emotional health, full use of my body, plenty of friends, and freedom from a work schedule. Therefore I am going on as many nature adventures as possible, reading as many books as possible, and taking any form of entertainment that comes my way. Yes I'm like a teenager except smarter because I know better.

Taking life in as it comes.

MUCH LOVE!!!

Very Rare

Everyone thinks undocumented immigrants are here because they cross the border with the help of coyotes, or other family members or just decide to cross the border themselves regardless of the laws in this country. David Moreno, like many other stories I've heard, came here on a visitor visa but never left.

On many of the articles I've read, I always read the comments, and angry readers talk about how undocumented immigrants have no regard for the law, and they are selfish and just want all kinds of freebies. The law is the last thing you are thinking about when your family is starving, or your life is threatened by drug lords in the neighborhood or even police.

There is also lots of talk about how the countries from which these undocumented immigrants come from need to take responsibility for their own people and provide the services of education and jobs for their own people. I actually brought this up in conversation with some friends the other day, do these people even realize what the cause of impoverishment is? GLOBALIZATION, NAFTA. Cheap labor with unchecked labor conditions that many people cannot survive, multi-million dollar corporations invading these countries are what ruin communities and force people to leave their home countries in search for better opportunities.

Americans want cheap products, where are these cheap products made? There are many people who will just live through the conditions but others, the undocumented immigrants in the U.S. who want to change the life-style they and their families have grown up in.

Oh I wish the crazy people who comment on those articles could read this . . . but maybe not because there are some intense nuts out there. They do need to know this though, one day I'll be able to say this openly, for now this is as open as it gets.

Yes I've been reading a lot of articles today, I apologize for all the emails (for those of you who subscribe).

Thanks for reading though :)
MUCH LOVE!!!

Fight for higher education for the undocumented

Today, Assemblyman Gil Cedillo is due to present a bill (previously presented and vetoed three times by ex-CA Governor Schwarzenegger) that would allow undocumented immigrant CA residents pursuing a higher education in the Cal State, UC or community college system access to CA financial aid. Here is the article. How amazing would that be?!

Also in this article I learned that New Mexico and Texas currently provide in state financial aid to undocumented immigrants, I wish I'd known that . . . right now it wouldn't do me any good bc I'd have to go there and establish residency to actually have access to financial aid. I suppose anyone who lives in either of these states that could benefit from it already knows about it, I hope so, but if you know anyone who doesn't know about it, please let them know!

It would be pretty awesome if this bill in CA gets passed and I'd have access to financial aid. Life is good :)

MUCH LOVE!!

This is more than luck

I just have to put this out there, I am blessed, gifted in life (not better at life than you, just surrounded by gifts).

This is to the people who have been part of my life and have made ALL THE DIFFERENCE. Personally I believe that it's not enough to want to go to college, make a difference in this world. You need to either have access to certain resources or have certain amazing loving people around you that love you, believe in you like they would a child of their own. The only family I grew up with were my two parents and later my brother who joined us when I was 9. A year after that the most wonderful people joined our family and I will always always ALWAYS be thankful to them and for them because they have changed my life.

I know you are reading this, you have made my life what it is today. There is only so much my parents and I could've done on our own, and without you I may have gotten close to where I am today, but not this exact life I am living right now and I am grateful for you. I love exactly where I am right now.

THANK YOU.

MUCH LOVE!!!

Political Debate in 2011: Birthright

Apologies for the silence this last week, I've been reading up on "immigration in the news" not too much has happened yet. Lots of transition of governors etc, so little action in terms of life-changing immigration policy at the moment.

State Senators of 14 states have been working and have presented their intention of changing the 14th Amendment. That's a link for those of you who want to read up on the Amendment, basically it states that any child born in the U.S. is automatically a U.S. citizen. In an attempt to control undocumented immigrants from coming to the U.S. and having their children and then using their children as their reason for attaining residency, anti-immigration politicians want to change this. How? They would require that at least one parent is at least a U.S. resident in order for the child to get U.S. citizenship, if not then the child of two undocumented parents would be given a different birth certificate. Here's the article. AZ State Senator Russell Pierce told the Washington Post that "[the 14th] amendment belongs to the African Americans of this country. It’s their amendment.” So if that's the case wouldn't that mean there are actually a lot more undocumented immigrants in this country? All the Germans, Italians, Irish, Chinese, Japanese and so on that came to the U.S. I'm not trying to attack any one group here, I'm just pointing out how . . . how should I put this lightly? Stupid Pierce's statement is? He clearly hasn't thought his plan out. In that same statement he says, "[The sponsors] specifically said it didn’t apply to foreigners or aliens." What aliens is he talking about?! No one, or at least that we know of yet, was born in outer space, if anyone in politics is reading this, please make sure your colleagues know their geography.

This is going to be an interesting year, I hope all of you are looking forward to it as much as I am.

Golden Ticket (notification of my interview date) hasn't arrived yet. I finished reading Love in Time of Cholera by Gabriel García Márquez, Blue Coyote by Christopher Moore, and am reading The Abs Diet by Zinckenzko. No I'm not going on a diet, just putting together everything I've learned about nutrition and health to improve my own heatlh and fitness. I'm doing everything to keep my mind off the frustration of waiting for the Golden Ticket.

Thanks for keeping up.

MUCH LOVE!!!

Hello 2011

I know all I've been talking about has been how amazing this coming year is for me, so there's very little need for me to repeat what's so special about this new year.

I do want to make it clear though that just because the past years haven't been so drastically life-changing doesn't make them any less important. If you've been following my blog I think by now you realize the type of person I am, I am goal-oriented and make the best of situations no matter how bad they've been. I know life could be worse, but this is not a contest to see how bad life can get, it's just an exposé of what my life has been.

Honestly the more I think about the reality of the changes I do get a little overwhelmed but it's all about taking things as they come. I hope the best for all of you and those around you. Don't think that because things will be resolved for me I will stop blogging thought, we will see a transition for sure, but let's just take changes as they come.

MUCH LOVE!!!

Belated Merry Christmas

Apologies for the belated holiday spirit. In my family our Christmas dinner is on Christmas Eve so all of the 24th we spend it preparing food, I look forward to this day as much as any American-born person looks forward to Thanksgiving dinner. In my family particularly it's not always about the gifts, because we can't always afford an insane amount of gifts like the consumer driven holiday depicts. We have always had a greater emphasis on acknowledging how lucky we are to still have each other, and have the relationship and trust we have.

The last 16 years have had us on edge, and we are so relentlessly thankful that this will be the last stressful Christmas. Like I've shared before, the closer we get to the finish line the more frantic and impatient I become. It's definitely a difficult situation to manage but I've lived with it and now that I'm older know how to better handle my impatience. There's no use in becoming restless, especially now.

Every time we come around another new year I tell myself it's going to be different, that "this is the year", but now, today, 2011 really is the year. I keep repeating this because I still don't believe it, but perhaps by reminding myself I'll be better prepared when the time truly comes.

I hope everyone had a great time with their families over this holiday season. If you didn't get what you wanted this year, be thankful. We must remember that sometimes we are better off without certain things in life we convince ourselves are necessary.

Be thankful for what you have and don't have.

MUCH LOVE!!!

biometrics

Today was the day, it wasn't as exciting as I wanted to think it was haha. It's really more about what it symbolizes rather than what the process actually is. Progress. One step closer, and really the materialization of the prize.

Finger printing is not what it was when I was last finger printed (that makes me sound old haha this was less than 10 years ago!), it's all digital now, no ink on your fingertips to clean off at the end. They took my picture, now the FBI can actually find me, but they won't because I've committed no crimes.

After I got home I spent the rest of the day reading the last 200pgs of Love in time of cholera by Gabriel García Márquez. I first read him in a Spanish literature class at UCSB, I'd gone my entire life hating poetry and he showed up and threw that out the window. So now I'm going to read Las otras puertas (The Other Doors) which was one of the books I picked up from giant pile of books being thrown out by the Spanish department, I've always loved taking books people want to get rid of.

Hope my readers are well.

MUCH LOVE!!!

the goings on with the "DREAM Act"

I apologize I didn't report diligently as I usually do with the passing of the DREAM Act at the House and it's failure at the Senate. While it was up for vote at the House I was preparing for finals, three of which I got As in (grade for the 4th class hasn't been posted yet). I must be honest, and those of you who know me or have been following me, may expect this response, I am not surprised the Dream Act did not pass in the Senate. I realize it comes off pessimistic, I consider it being realistic.

Like I divulged before, I'm not exactly sure what those against the Dream Act think they are giving away here, especially after all the changes they made to it before it was voted on in the House. Either way, reality is, the Dream Act has been undergoing voting for 10 years, and it has not passed, so go from there. I deeply admire those who have put so much of their lives into fighting for the Dream Act and refuse to give up, I hope to have that kind of diligence in my life.

On a more personal note, I am on break until dundunDUN, February 14! I've plenty to keep myself busy with: reading, reporting news and sharing myself with you, writing, exercising, preparing for the GRE, further researching Nutrition Masters programs, and who knows maybe even looking for a job :X

This coming Tuesday I'm getting my biometrics done (or taken/measured all of that), and I'm pretty sure that will be all the progress we make since it's Christmas this weekend. So unless my interview date has already been set and it gets sent out before New years, I won't be hearing anything until January. Either way, the interview most likely won't be until January or February, it's the most amazing thing I've had to look forward to since I sent my Intent to Register to UCSB.

I can't even fathom the gates of life finally opening up to me completely, I have gone my entire life with an extremely selectively permeable wall that despite the difficulties I will go through in finding a job and becoming a real person, I won't recognize them as obstacles. Boundaries will be nonexistent.

I will finally be getting my wings!!

Thank you for following and supporting.

MUCH LOVE!!!

Anniversary

Today commemorates 21 years since my dad arrived in the U.S. As I'm typing this he is telling my mom of his arrival and how lost he was taking the buses around here. None of us could've imagined what was going to happen six years later and what we were going to live through and be where we are this very moment.

I a graduate of UCSB working towards a Masters in Nutrition, a son (whose existence none of us could've guessed) who is now half-way through his sophomore year of high school. And the endless sacrifices both my parents have had to make to be here, physically, emotionally, and mentally.

All my best to my readers :)

MUCH LOVE!!!

And by the way, can't wait for Tuesday 21st to roll around :X

Let the Magic Start!

Today, as well as Dec 21st are the new benchmarks! Today, in my mail box was the receipt to my application to adjust status (immigration telling me they've received it) and a date for me to show up and get finger printed. I will be going on the records as an approved human being!

Perhaps I'll be hearing from them regarding my interview date soon (fingers crossed)! This coming year really is going to be a new year, not just changing its digits, but new in what new truly means, uncharted, unfamiliar ground to be traversed, this is so exciting!!!

There is always something great waiting on the other side :)

MUCH LOVE!!!