Apologies for the belated holiday spirit. In my family our Christmas dinner is on Christmas Eve so all of the 24th we spend it preparing food, I look forward to this day as much as any American-born person looks forward to Thanksgiving dinner. In my family particularly it's not always about the gifts, because we can't always afford an insane amount of gifts like the consumer driven holiday depicts. We have always had a greater emphasis on acknowledging how lucky we are to still have each other, and have the relationship and trust we have.
The last 16 years have had us on edge, and we are so relentlessly thankful that this will be the last stressful Christmas. Like I've shared before, the closer we get to the finish line the more frantic and impatient I become. It's definitely a difficult situation to manage but I've lived with it and now that I'm older know how to better handle my impatience. There's no use in becoming restless, especially now.
Every time we come around another new year I tell myself it's going to be different, that "this is the year", but now, today, 2011 really is the year. I keep repeating this because I still don't believe it, but perhaps by reminding myself I'll be better prepared when the time truly comes.
I hope everyone had a great time with their families over this holiday season. If you didn't get what you wanted this year, be thankful. We must remember that sometimes we are better off without certain things in life we convince ourselves are necessary.
Be thankful for what you have and don't have.
MUCH LOVE!!!
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